2001-10-05 - 1:29 p.m.

Die irritant,die!!!

Kafka's metamorphosis comes to my mind.

I am a cockroach.

Haha!!!!!

I'm an irritant,all my ranting and whining has taken it's toll on my social life.

If my friends do have a list of people to avoid,I'm pretty sure that my name is somewhere up there.

Why am I in this shit course?I've never liked Chemical Engineering,I hate maths,and I do want to have a life!

Thank you Laiteng for bring the fact up that I whine too much,I should count my blessings(sic)?

Try dragging yourself to school everyday and facing modules after modules of killer subjects...try it and real soon you will know what's the taste of a Chemical Engineering student's life is like.

Don't blame me for wanting to switch course,I'm taking the easy way out,I'm escaping reality...but at least I'm taking actions to change my life.

Certainly,studying 6 days a week and burning precious weekends doing lab reports,assignments and programming is not the kind of life I want to lead for even a moment,let alone for 4 years.

A big middle finger goes out to people who thinks that Chemical Engineering is course creme de la creme...it's a course where students are over-stressed and the degree is under-valued.

What chance do we stand against the Cornell graduates?We can run fast with 2 legs but we still can't go faster than a horse with 4.

I just wish that I have the courage to quit school and pursue my dreams and FUCK EVERYCARE in this world...this life is certainly not worth living.

I will still whine,I will still complain...the cows can come home and I will still do it,till the day when I get to do something which I like.

I hate to say this:but as much as I hate the army...those days in green were better than the situation I am in now.

People drop me a line if you want to hear complains.

I'm the perfect material for glooming the sunny skies,to make you smell the coffee and say a big hello to reality...no way am I going to feed rose tinted images of sugar coated hopes and dreams.

Life is a phase of time where we get to live for insignificant moments compared to the grander cosmic scales,and why do we have to suffer?It's only a short 70 years or so...I'm already 21 and I very much believe that the best days for me are already over...sad,trite but true.

I hate my life.

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